Currently Listening To: “Make Me Proud” by Drake Featuring Nicki Minaj…
: the ability to control yourself : strong determination that allows you to do something difficult (such as to lose weight or quit smoking)
This past weekend started a little bit early. I was able to get off of work on Friday around 10:30 AM. I went straight home, cleaned up my entire apartment (I just don’t understand how it gets so junky sometimes when most of the times, I’m the only one there). Hit up my weed man… Then after that, I honestly don’t remember what happened. I cant remember what I did. I don’t know if I worked out or what. I honestly cant remember anything… lol. That’s bad – I know.
Saturday morning came… I woke up early then I worked out! Yep… I am SOOO happy that I have my mojo back because for a minute there I was getting worried. I want this Video Vixen body so damn bad but its hard to accomplish a goal when you have no motivation whatsoever. Glad that stage has finally passed. I didn’t work out for too long because there were too many people in the damn gym. Like we only have 4 pieces of equipment in our apartment complex gym and the shit I was waiting on was being occupied. So I quit early and decided that I would just get the rest of my exercise by going to the store to get a money order for rent & also picking up a few supplies since it was my boyfriends birthday. In case ya didn’t know, I am a HUGE hopeless romantic. But we’ll get into that shit another day. Anyway, I waited and waited on the city bus… and waited. That muh fucka never came. So I went back into the house and took that as a sign to smoke again. A few puffs and chokes later, it was time to go back out and wait for the damn bus. Oh great! It’s raining! Smh… Long story short, I got everything I needed. But I didn’t come from out of the Save-A-Lot store quick enough. Just as I was walking out, I happened to look up and see my bus riding past the bus stop that I was supposed to be standing at. Smh… I’m not even going to lie, I sat there for a few moments, wondering if I should cry or tough that shit up and just walk all the way home since the next bus wasn’t coming for another 45 damn minutes. I TRIED to walk… getting soaked and all. Until the lightning stopped me. Hurried and ran into a sandwich shop and waited in there until the coast was clear. I saw a few folks come in ordering shit, made me think about their lives. Like did they have a good life? Were they happy? Did they live paycheck to paycheck? I wondered… were their lives anything like mine. I doubt it. Anyway, I ran out of the sandwich shop in time enough to catch the next bus. Yay…
Sunday morning came… and I worked out again!! For almost 2 hours! Jogging, speed walking, jump rope, elliptical, leg press, high incline, squats and some arm pully thing-a-ma-jig. I felt so good. All the times I thought about giving up, I went even harder. Especially when a certain song came on… I’ll tell you about that song later. So anyway… I’d say this weekend was a pretty productive weekend even though I didn’t get a chance to see my boyfriend 😦 Hopefully today though because I got some shit planned out the ass when he gets there. Rose petals and lit tea light candles will lead the way to the bathroom where a romantic bubble bath will be awaiting him, the water will be a beautiful ocean blue with scented bubbles filled to the rim for him to enjoy. Soft sexy and slow music will enter the atmosphere as he relaxes. There will also be a birthday candlelit mini Cherry pie waiting for him as well that he can enjoy while he soaks in the warm bubbly water (He loves him some pie). While he is enjoying his bath, I will put the finishing touches on his birthday meal – a homemade gourmet pizza with chicken chunks, seared broccoli, pepperoni, smoked gouda & asiago cheese, tomato sauce, oregano and a slight drizzle of truffle oil (all made from scratch by yours truly of course). Sweet tea with a hint of vanilla & infused with fresh orange slices. For dessert? Me. Duhhh… Nah. But he will have a small pot of dark chocolate fondue waiting on him with the following items to dip: oreos, rice krispie treats, nutter butter cookies, apple & orange slices. While he is eating that, I will set up something romantic in my bedroom… A romantic spa oasis where I will give him the best massage of his life (as usual) with warm lavender scented baby oil & some fellatio oral gel. I also have this nice liquid heart massager by Pure Romance that can turn extremely hot within just a few seconds, he loves that. The rest of the evening will be up to our imaginations… I will be sure to take pictures of what I can. If he doesn’t come over tonight? Well… lets just say today might be my cheat day. -_______-
Anyways… I wanted to do something different today. I wanted to share with you all how I gained my weight. I am a gourmet private chef. I cook for couples ONLY. I create a romantic dining experience for my clients. They enjoy my delicious home-cooked meals at their homes, parks… and even the beach! (which is my most popular dinner experience to date). So when I cook for them, of course I have to test, create and try out new dishes for them to enjoy. My problem is I don’t know how to just taste. I gotta devour that shit. Ughhh… the struggle is real. So here are a few items that I have been enjoying a few days/weeks/months before my new lifestyle journey began, the shit that got me to the weight I am today…
“Reese’s Stuffed Chocolate Dipped Oreos with a Pistachio Crumble…” (one of my faves)
“Lovelle’s Comfort Cookies (White & Milk Chocolate Chip Cookies)…” (top fave)
“Buttermilk Pancakes with a Rum Berry Compote…”
“3 Spice Fried Chicken Strips & French Vanilla Waffles…” (I love me some chicken & waffles)
“Grilled Salsa Verde Taco Pizza…”
“Surf N’ Turf Burger (Grilled Cheddar Bacon Angus Beef topped with Smoked Gouda & Muenster Cheese, Grilled Onions, Grilled Shrimp & Chipotle Aioli)…”
“Bruschetta…” (I love this stuff!)
“Lobster Stuffed Mushrooms with Broccoli Sprouts & Chipotle Aioli…”
“Bruschetta Chicken Pasta…”
“Oven Baked Beef Hot Dogs with Avocado, Pico de Gallo & Wasabi Mayo and Deep Fried Garlic Tator Tots with fresh parsley…”
“Baked Shrimp Scampi & Shrimp Scampi Pasta…”
“Chili Cheese Hot Dogs & Garlic Tator Tots…”
“Twice Baked Chili Potatoes…”
“Honey Hot Wings & Potato Wedges…”
Ok, ok. So maybe MOST of these foods are things that I enjoyed cooking and tasting for myself, let alone a client. I have issues. I know this. And now that I know, I know how to improve and do better. I can honestly say that… Ok. Let me just stop myself while I’m ahead before I tell a lie. I have had ONE of these items while I have been dieting… Which isn’t TOO bad (you don’t know my life). Can you guess which one?
I’ll give you a hint: It starts with pan, ends with cakes. They were scrumptious too!
What’s your favorite cheat food?