Best Cure for Anger is… SWEAT!!

Currently Listening To: “B.A.N.S.” by Sevyn Streeter…


The romantic birthday surprise for my boyfriend did not happen… again. Whelp…

Anyway. When I got home yesterday, I had every excuse in the book why I didnt want to workout. I gotta clean up, I gotta cook this romantic meal for Tre (my boo), I gotta run his bubble bath, I gotta sprinkle roses everywhere, I gotta prepare the fondue, I gotta… SHUT UP! Something within me said: “Listen boo, you can’t allow a man to fuck up your goals. Don’t let a man be the reason for your downfall… We deserve the life that we are about to earn so don’t stop now, we’re so close!” So I toughed it up and went to work out. 

I was angry yesterday. So I took it to the gym:

– 100 arm pulley thing-a-ma-jigs

– 100 leg presses

– 15 minutes speed walking/jogging combo (treadmill)

– 10 minutes high incline walk (treadmill)


I worked my ass off yesterday and I was so proud.Even had time to snap a quick pic:



I took my weekly progress photo as well yesterday. Judging from my pics last week, I MAY have lost a lil something-something, but its definitely not a dramatic difference, which is okay with me. I’m just trying to keep at it & stay motivated.



Not too shabby huh? I still have a belly and rolls and muffin tops and blah blah blah. I know, I know. SO!

I’ve been using cocoa butter these past 2 weeks to try & get rid of the stretch marks I have around my waist and stomach. Also going to start using cellulite cream for my thighs. 

In other news though, my booty lifter is due to arrive today!! I am SOOO elated! Can’t wait. I will be sure to take pics in it with an over-garment covering my exposed booty cheeks ;-p

When your partner makes you upset, how do you channel your anger? 


Private Chef Skills vs. Willpower – Which One Do I Get Rid Of?!

Currently Listening To: “Make Me Proud” by Drake Featuring Nicki Minaj…




noun \ˈwil-ˌpa(-ə)r\

: the ability to control yourself : strong determination that allows you to do something difficult (such as to lose weight or quit smoking)



This past weekend started a little bit early. I was able to get off of work on Friday around 10:30 AM. I went straight home, cleaned up my entire apartment (I just don’t understand how it gets so junky sometimes when most of the times, I’m the only one there). Hit up my weed man… Then after that, I honestly don’t remember what happened. I cant remember what I did. I don’t know if I worked out or what. I honestly cant remember anything… lol. That’s bad – I know.

Saturday morning came… I woke up early then I worked out! Yep… I am SOOO happy that I have my mojo back because for a minute there I was getting worried. I want this Video Vixen body so damn bad but its hard to accomplish a goal when you have no motivation whatsoever. Glad that stage has finally passed. I didn’t work out for too long because there were too many people in the damn gym. Like we only have 4 pieces of equipment in our apartment complex gym and the shit I was waiting on was being occupied. So I quit early and decided that I would just get the rest of my exercise by going to the store to get a money order for rent & also picking up a few supplies since it was my boyfriends birthday. In case ya didn’t know, I am a HUGE hopeless romantic. But we’ll get into that shit another day. Anyway, I waited and waited on the city bus… and waited. That muh fucka never came. So I went back into the house and took that as a sign to smoke again. A few puffs and chokes later, it was time to go back out and wait for the damn bus. Oh great! It’s raining! Smh… Long story short, I got everything I needed. But I didn’t come from out of the Save-A-Lot store quick enough. Just as I was walking out, I happened to look up and see my bus riding past the bus stop that I was supposed to be standing at. Smh… I’m not even going to lie, I sat there for a few moments, wondering if I should cry or tough that shit up and just walk all the way home since the next bus wasn’t coming for another 45 damn minutes. I TRIED to walk… getting soaked and all. Until the lightning stopped me. Hurried and ran into a sandwich shop and waited in there until the coast was clear. I saw a few folks come in ordering shit, made me think about their lives. Like did they have a good life? Were they happy? Did they live paycheck to paycheck? I wondered… were their lives anything like mine. I doubt it. Anyway, I ran out of the sandwich shop in time enough to catch the next bus. Yay…

Sunday morning came… and I worked out again!! For almost 2 hours! Jogging, speed walking, jump rope, elliptical, leg press, high incline, squats and some arm pully thing-a-ma-jig. I felt so good. All the times I thought about giving up, I went even harder. Especially when a certain song came on… I’ll tell you about that song later. So anyway… I’d say this weekend was a pretty productive weekend even though I didn’t get a chance to see my boyfriend 😦 Hopefully today though because I got some shit planned out the ass when he gets there. Rose petals and lit tea light candles will lead the way to the bathroom where a romantic bubble bath will be awaiting him, the water will be a beautiful ocean blue with scented bubbles filled to the rim for him to enjoy. Soft sexy and slow music will enter the atmosphere as he relaxes. There will also be a birthday candlelit mini Cherry pie waiting for him as well that he can enjoy while he soaks in the warm bubbly water (He loves him some pie). While he is enjoying his bath, I will put the finishing touches on his birthday meal – a homemade gourmet pizza with chicken chunks, seared broccoli, pepperoni, smoked gouda & asiago cheese, tomato sauce, oregano and a slight drizzle of truffle oil (all made from scratch by yours truly of course). Sweet tea with a hint of vanilla & infused with fresh orange slices. For dessert? Me. Duhhh… Nah. But he will have a small pot of dark chocolate fondue waiting on him with the following items to dip: oreos, rice krispie treats, nutter butter cookies, apple & orange slices. While he is eating that, I will set up something romantic in my bedroom… A romantic spa oasis where I will give him the best massage of his life (as usual) with warm lavender scented baby oil & some fellatio oral gel. I also have this nice liquid heart massager by Pure Romance that can turn extremely hot within just a few seconds, he loves that. The rest of the evening will be up to our imaginations… I will be sure to take pictures of what I can. If he doesn’t come over tonight? Well… lets just say today might be my cheat day.   -_______-


Anyways… I wanted to do something different today. I wanted to share with you all how I gained my weight. I am a gourmet private chef. I cook for couples ONLY. I create a romantic dining experience for my clients. They enjoy my delicious home-cooked meals at their homes, parks… and even the beach! (which is my most popular dinner experience to date). So when I cook for them, of course I have to test, create and try out new dishes for them to enjoy. My problem is I don’t know how to just taste. I gotta devour that shit. Ughhh… the struggle is real. So here are a few items that I have been enjoying a few days/weeks/months before my new lifestyle journey began, the shit that got me to the weight I am today…



“Reese’s Stuffed Chocolate Dipped Oreos with a Pistachio Crumble…” (one of my faves)





“Lovelle’s Comfort Cookies (White & Milk Chocolate Chip Cookies)…” (top fave)



“Buttermilk Pancakes with a Rum Berry Compote…”



“3 Spice Fried Chicken Strips & French Vanilla Waffles…” (I love me some chicken & waffles)



“Grilled Salsa Verde Taco Pizza…”



“Surf N’ Turf Burger (Grilled Cheddar Bacon Angus Beef topped with Smoked Gouda & Muenster Cheese, Grilled Onions, Grilled Shrimp & Chipotle Aioli)…”



“Bruschetta…” (I love this stuff!)



“Lobster Stuffed Mushrooms with Broccoli Sprouts & Chipotle Aioli…”



“Bruschetta Chicken Pasta…”



“Oven Baked Beef Hot Dogs with Avocado, Pico de Gallo & Wasabi Mayo and Deep Fried Garlic Tator Tots with fresh parsley…”



“Baked Shrimp Scampi & Shrimp Scampi Pasta…”




“Chili Cheese Hot Dogs & Garlic Tator Tots…”



“Twice Baked Chili Potatoes…”



“Honey Hot Wings & Potato Wedges…”


Ok, ok. So maybe MOST of these foods are things that I enjoyed cooking and tasting for myself, let alone a client. I have issues. I know this. And now that I know, I know how to improve and do better. I can honestly say that… Ok. Let me just stop myself while I’m ahead before I tell a lie. I have had ONE of these items while I have been dieting… Which isn’t TOO bad (you don’t know my life). Can you guess which one?


I’ll give you a hint: It starts with pan, ends with cakes. They were scrumptious too!

What’s your favorite cheat food?

Starting from the bottom… to the TOP!

Currently Listening To: “Started from the Bottom” by Drake…





One of the worst feelings in life for me is rejection. On all levels. Rejection from friends. Rejection from a job opportunity. Rejection from the world. It sucks. And it really hurts when you get rejected knowing that you could have did something about it to revise the outcome, but you let rejection take over and depression set in. That was me.


My name is Lovelle. And this is my story…



I was always a slim size throughout my childhood. At one point in time, I was even made fun of for being too skinny. I was called straight legs because my legs & thighs were the same size. I was tall and linky. I hated my body. I went on to high school and maintained my shape until one day, my senior year, I noticed a photo that was taken of me. I was an average size for an 18 year old but I noticed that my waist was drastically and noticeably bigger than most of my peers. So i was always self conscious of my body. I dont think I have ever had a period in my life where i was just like… “Yes honey! I love the skin I’m in…”. Nope. Not me. Not today at least… Over the years, I grew and grew. Pasta, rich and creamy sauces, chocolate chip cookies, casseroles, pizza, chicken, etc. I can go on and on. I LOVES me some food! I am a private food artist so I am constantly having to try out & create new and exciting recipes for my clients to enjoy. But add months and years of fattening recipes, and you have me at my all time low.


Slim Quick, Body by Vi, The Military Diet, Body Wraps, Apple Cider Vinegar, Hip Hops Abs, Garcinia Cambogia, Slim Fast, etc. You name it, I bought it and tried it. I will be honest, some of those actually did work for me. I lost the pounds, but I only saw the results AFTER I had given up. You see, I have this problem with if I dont see some type of results within a certain timeframe, I just up and quit. And that’s what I did with everything. I never stuck to anything… until now.


Now i’m on my own routine. I run this show and I call the shots! On March 3, 2014, I decided that that day would be the first day of my new life. No more excuses – just results.

For the first 3 weeks, I did the military diet and exercised. The first week was honestly the easiest. I was so motivated and enthusiastic about working out. But I was being too hard on myself. 5 days into my new lifestyle I was already expecting to see results. When I didnt see them, I would get upset. I dont know what for because I know that its going to take more than a few days to see changes in my body, but I guess since I was so eager to see something, it bothered me when it didnt happen so my exercise & eating routine changed drastically. The first week i went HARD. Eating healthy & also exercising EVERYDAY. 2nd week I slowed down drastically because of my lady problems (PMS is such a little bitch, isnt she?). My eating routine had also changed. My boyfriend was ordering food all of the time from pizza places when he would come over. Instead of me having any willpower and going to the fridge for a snack, I would indulge in the fatty goodness with him. 3rd week? I exercised maybe twice, but not hard at all. My eating habits were bad. Then I went out of town and ate bad again. So here we are, March 25, 2014. I didnt start back on the Military Diet this week. I feel like it deprives me from the healthy foods that I actually do enjoy for too long to the point where when I can start to eat what I want again, I overdo it because I missed it so much. Fat girl problems. So this week I decided to take a different approach. Its Tuesday. I havent went to go exercise yet.


So I decided that maybe if I kept an ONLINE journal of my progress, my struggles and my overall journey, it would somehow give me the motivation that I need to get back to my goal. You see, I’m not just trying to lose weight, I am trying to build my body from the ground up, similar to popular video vixens and urban models: Deelishis, Irene the Dream, Amazin Amie, Buffie the Body, Melyssa Ford, Kyra Chaos, Yaris Sanchez, etc. It may seem shallow, but that’s what I want and that’s what I am working towards. The way I see, a better body, a better mindframe, a better life. No more mediocrity. No more settling. Just the best.

No more waiting in lines in the club, we go straight to VIP. Fun. Lights. Music. Dancing. Money. Cash. Celebrities. Flirting. Popping Bottles. Music Videos. Album Release Parties. Events. Jets. Traveling. Seeing the World. Living that good life… That’s what I want. And I honestly feel that it WILL happen within the next few months if I just stick to the plan. You see, Im supposed to be moving to Atlanta once my lease ends in July (I’m currently residing in Tampa). So I want to be top notch ready when I get there, no flaws. I am a force to be reckoned with on some real shit. I have the beauty, my body definitely has the potential, I have the talents, a hustler’s ambition and a business attitude to succeed in ATL. So its only a matter of time before the stars are aligned…

This is my journey. Follow me as I work my way to the top!




Date: March 3, 2014 | Location: Tampa, Florida | Age: 28 | Weight: 300 Plus Pounds… AND… Here we go.


Are you currently struggling with a personal goal of yours? What do you do to stay motivated?